Sometimes...

I feel like I don't truly belong with my friends. I mean, I know I'm ridiculously easy to make fun of and I react more than a person usually should when people are poking fun at them but...I don't know. In the back of my mind, I just feel like they don't actually like me at all and that they only keep me around because I'm always a good source of entertainment and I'm always the butt of their jokes. It's kind of annoying. And no one really likes a lot of the tings that I like. Frasier, old movies (Anchors Aweigh, The King and I, The Sound of Music, etc.) Whenever I want to watch them, no one else wants to. What's wrong with The Wizard of Oz? What's wrong with Frasier? Nothing. It's just that whenever we go to Tristan Video to find movies to rent, the ones that I pick out are always outvoted by the ones that everyone else wants to watch. And the thing is, I like all of the other movies that everyone else picks out, so why must I resort to watching the movies that I like ALONE? Meh. Maybe I'm just asking too much. It's not entirely outlandish to consider myself a selfish person. I just don't like being shot down ALL THE FUCKING TIME. All year, all I've wanted to do is watch either The Sound of Music, The Wizard of Oz, Titanic OR Anchors Aweigh with my friends. Just one of those movies I would like to watch with everyone else. Has that happened? Of course not. I'm watching Anchors Aweigh with Fallon tomorrow, though. So I guess that's a start. But honestly, I'm fully prepared to watch all of the other movies by myself. I've done it before, I can do it again. Actually, I don't know why it's so important for me to watch these movies with anyone else at all. If they don't want to watch them, that's their loss. I know how amazing all of these movies are. Fucking hell. And yet I get shocked gasps and stares when I say that I've never seen Step Brothers. And what happened? I was forced to fucking watch that movie. I don't mind it, really. But what if I'm firmly against Will Ferrell's existence (which I'm not)? I would not have wanted to see that movie. But no, they all felt that it was a movie that I really needed to see because apparently I was missing out on some serious amusement. Same thing with The Hangover. And while I enjoyed those movies, among others, I feel the same way about the movies that I listed early. Yet, will anyone cooperate with me so that they may witness a few brilliant musicals?! OF FUCKING COURSE NOT. I think the problem here is that I'm severely outnumbered, therefore it's quite easy for everyone else to impose their (well-meaning, I'm sure) will upon me. Whatever. I feel like crying. I honestly don't feel like I belong with them. I love each and every one of them but I just don't know. I need a drink.